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The Pros and Cons of Empathy–Guest Post by Jade Rivera

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The following post was written by my colleague, Jade Rivera. I thank her for her insight, sensitivity and heart.  10428493_573813756066619_2003962041113343282_n

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When my mother passed, I never thought How sad for me or How sad for my siblings and stepfather. Instead I thought How sad for her.

And that’s how the sadness lived in me — as a sadness for her.

And it still does.

I’ve explained this corner of my mourning process to various people who know about my early life — the abuse, the trauma, and the exploitation. Mostly, they all say the same thing: “But why? Why have that care… for her, of all people?”

It’s my empathy, and it’s who I am.

I have a rainforest mind, and my biggest chainsaw just happened to be my own mother. And as crazy as it may seem, I have empathy and compassion for that metaphorical chainsaw.

After living a life that was cut short by drugs, desperation, and mental illness; there are no more chances for her. She’ll never have the chance to heal. She’ll never get to say “I’m sorry” and feel the forgiveness I had ready for her in my heart.

In my rainforest mind I can go to the layer that knows that all behaviors — good, bad, or even abusive — exist to meet a need. My mother’s needs for love and care were not met at various crucial junctions in her life, and because of that, she did not learn to meet mine.

It’s not unusual for gifted people to have this level insight from a very young age. Deep empathy is a common characteristic of a rainforest mind, and I’m no exception. While the compassion I had for my chainsaw mother was automatic and authentic, I now realize that it ultimately contributed to me rationalizing my abuse and staying present in a situation that nearly ruined me.

I also know that it’s my compassion for her that inspired me to let go and get good help to overcome my childhood with love in my heart.

It can be confusing, and it’s absolutely more complex than just this… but I don’t imagine that I’m alone in this duality. These are the pros and cons of empathy.

Your empathy for an abuser (or anyone that has hurt you in some way) may hold you in place for longer than is healthy, and it may also allow you to open your heart, forgive, and move on.

While my healing work will never be over, it’s somehow comforting to know that I have a rare capacity for love and forgiveness. Now, years after my mother’s passing, I have enough self-empathy to know that it’s okay that I stayed… and it is okay that I left.

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Jade Rivera is a writer and coach for gifted families. She lives in Oakland, CA with her fiancé and 16 year old cat, Earl. You can learn more about her work at her website.

To my blogEEs: Your comments are welcome, as always. What are your experiences of empathy? Pros and cons? How are you building “self-empathy?” Did you have a “chainsaw parent?” Depending on what you say, both Jade and I will be available to respond. I recommend that you check out her website, especially if you’re raising sweet little rainforest-minded kiddos.

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Author: Paula Prober

I'm a psychotherapist in private practice in Eugene, Oregon. I specialize in counseling gifted adults and consulting with parents of gifted children. The label "gifted" is often controversial and confusing. I use the metaphor of the rain forest to describe this population. Like the rain forest, these individuals are quite complex, highly sensitive, intense, multi-layered, and misunderstood. They're also curious, idealistic, highly intelligent, creative, perfectionistic, and they love learning. I've been an adjunct instructor at the University of Oregon and a guest presenter at Oregon State University and Pacific University. I've written articles on giftedness for the Eugene Register-Guard, the Psychotherapy Networker, and Advanced Development Journal. My book, Your Rainforest Mind: A Guide to the Well-Being of Gifted Adults and Youth, was released in June 2016 by GHF Press and is available on Amazon or at your independent bookstore.

23 thoughts on “The Pros and Cons of Empathy–Guest Post by Jade Rivera

  1. This is just marvelous and heartfelt. Oh, Jade and Paula… I admire you both a little more each day. Thanks for this marvelous post.

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  2. The admiration is mutual, thank you.

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  3. Your writing on this was simply beautiful! I was just having a discussion on this with my dh tonight. I didn’t realize it was a “rainforest mind” trait. While I wasn’t abused in any significant way, I am adopted and then raised by parents with lots of attachment baggage of their own, among other issues. I think my ability to empathize is one thing that kept me semi-sane in my life, and yes, probably also kept me in situations I should have left, much longer than was healthy.

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  4. This is such an incredibly beautiful and succinct post! I’m sure so many of us have a family member or friend who was a “chainsaw” to us, and reading this can surely help us sort through our feelings in an emotionally healthy way. Thanks you, Jade for such talented writing, and thank you, Paula for sharing Jades’ work!

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  5. My situation was similar in that I stayed through my mother’s 9 yr illness and fought so hard for her to stay alive. But she was my chainsaw, and I am not over it as much as I try to pretend that I am fine.
    This post is the first that I have heard of a rainforest mind, but I love the term. It is the best one to describe me. After so many years, I just feel so misunderstood, and am often described as so intense.

    Thank-you.

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  6. My mother’s favorite movie was The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Was she a chainsaw? Yes indeed.
    I love that you put it that you held empathy and love for her in your heart.
    I share that sadness and holding for my own mother, my father too; they are both gone now.
    I hold it for my siblings, who apparently are following in our parents’ footsteps, practicing with their own chainsaws.
    Only my rainforest is now so remote from where they are, they cannot get to it.
    If it’s possible to move an entire rainforest, I’ve done it!

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    • I’m glad that you are giving yourself the distance you need to feel safe. It is hard to watch siblings go down those familiar roads. I try to do my best to remain supportive but it can be quite difficult!

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  7. Thank you for sharing this. It really hit home with me. I’ve often wondered why I keep going back to my chainsaw parents with a heart full of hope, only to be felled down again and again. Your openness and honesty are incredibly helpful to those of us still dealing with these issues.

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  8. Wow. This speaks to me on a very deep, very personal level. Thank you to both of you for this.

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  11. This post resonates so strongly with me. (I actually wrote a poem about this just yesterday: https://signpostsproject.wordpress.com/2016/01/03/mother/)

    I’ve just moved back into a home that was extremely unhealthy for me growing up, and my growth over the years has me seeing the same situations so differently now. I am so much more aware of all the suffering and unmet needs underlying the destructive behaviours, and all I want is to help my family to thrive. At the same time I am recognizing my own needs that are going unmet in these circumstances, and that I first need to honour my own suffering and learn to care for my own well-being in this environment before I’ll ever be able to love my mother the way I want to.

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